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Monday, October 6th, 2008
6:38 am	prostate So I am not quite sure what to write, as seen by the title, a lot of things are going wrong, but the job and band are going well. that is it. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 24th, 2008
4:59 pm	The terrible two's... I really hate cars...here I am supposed to be going to band practice and my battery is dead. Two good things, for one its my fault because I left the dome light on, even though I don't remember using it since I got home from work during the day, and would not have needed it in the day light. It's a good thing I don't need to go to work right now. TWO, at least it's just the battery being dead. So while it could be worse, at least it's not. That's TWO problems with my car in the last TWO weeks. The other being the replacement of my TWO front tires. On other news fronts, my band played a battle of the bands, we lost the finals by TWO votes. It sucks, but what can you do, we still played a great show, had a huge crowd, at least TWO times bigger than the last, and everyone had a great time. So from here on out, we will just be recording our new demo, and when it's done, playing a fuck ton of shows. I got a new job, I am supervisor of the toy department at Target! How cool is that you ask? Well...I just started this and am trying to figure it all out with just TWO months before the holidays make things crazy. I have only been here TWO weeks. Toys is an awesome place to work, except for the fact that it's a mess right now and I have a lot of cleaning up to do in that department. We don't have actual department employees till the seasonal people are hired, the normal Target employee is a worker for the whole floor, not just a department. According to my trainer, I am in charge of all the employees on the floor though. So this will be interesting. Just to make another one with TWO in it. I like boobs. Normally they come in TWO to make a set. That is a TWO I can still be happy about. The End (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 12th, 2008
10:36 pm	Has anyone .... ....read my story (part 1 and 2) yet? Any comments? Concerns? :) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 23rd, 2008
10:12 pm	Yeah..I guess its zombie jesus day Hope people who cared, had a good one. Stupid March stealing April’s hoilday. :p I think I have come to terms with myself, I actually am capable of enjoying a book and quiet time. I have found a new sense of art, drawing on photoshop for an online comic in the works, writing a story, and working on music.   ( Warning, Content not for children:  ) Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 1st, 2008
4:49 pm	More story...pt 2. 2. In the wake of everything going on, a parade of thoughts raced through my head, though I was unable to make sense of any of them. Instead, I chose to ignore them. On the outside I was a joking, fun person. Inside, I was falling apart and rotting. Visions and memories seem to jumble together, and become a clouded nightmare. I couldn't keep myself from wanting to see her. I became over-obsessed with her daily routines and life. I found myself at her house, at her work, while she was out with friends, watching her. I knew I was in the wrong, but it felt right to me. None the less, life as usual needed me else where. ( Read more... ) Comments very welcome, this would be my first real attempt, so I know I write like a n00b Current Mood: busy Current Music: Otep - Breed (Comment on this)
Monday, February 11th, 2008
1:06 pm	R.I.P. 02-06-2008 - 315ish am To Dad, This show on the 13th will be for you. Current Mood: confused (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 17th, 2008
12:50 am	Story Part 1. Revised! Editing tips if you may!?  Surrounded in a pitch black emptiness. Covered in a veil of forlornness. I have been to the front and back of life. I have roamed to the fathomless depths of the good and bad. My life has seen what it's like to live in an all-embracing circle. There is nothing more to see. I don't believe things can be any better than what great was, or any worse than what rock bottom was. Divine life has been both achieved, and completely squandered. This is none other than anything I have done for myself.  I however, now feel complete. Like I have reached my goals. Like I have experienced all the poverty and shame that I want to face. Yeah, I know, this is all going back and forth, but that's how it panned out. The ticket for the ride is free, the experience you'll remember through every life you live. No need to continue, no desire. Breathing because it is compulsory. ( The story... ) Current Mood: creative Current Music: Three Days Grace (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, January 4th, 2008
12:00 am	Splat! Thats all folks...anything else is a waste... (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 29th, 2007
4:05 pm	Videos from the shows incase ya missed em! (Comment on this)
Friday, October 12th, 2007
12:38 pm	K...I did one too...yep bored (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:21 pm	To Death! To Death, This year I would like a new bike, maybe even a new game system. I would also like it, if you would stop touching me when we are standing in line, that really bugs me, and since this is the second time I have told you Death, I would like it if you would listen. I know it's your job to bring all the boys and girls toys soon, but still, toys don't mean you can be a douche bag and bug people. Quit following them around and waiting for things to happen, I have a bat to hit you with fucker! So you better start listening! Can you also remember to bring home a salad later tonight, us poor children are starving... :( Asshole... Your children, Scott & Jeff Current Mood: annoyed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 25th, 2007
3:45 am	Holy sleep inducing drug-dreams Batman! I just had the strangest dream, I went home from work and drove dangerously on my meds, passed out when I walked in the door, and wow! The dream that I awoke from was pretty bad...slaughtered my poor brain in my sleep! I think its time I go back to sleep now, but I needed to do something before passing back out. Current Mood: oookay! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 26th, 2007
3:49 pm	Cute?? Cute?? Am I?? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
8:25 am	Out on the outside Lately I have been feeling pretty good. In fact I have been feeling very good. I have a positive outlook, I feel relaxed, I am enjoying the days more. ( But as the story goes.... ) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 19th, 2007
3:41 pm	The Virus Of Life it was a pretty song at the moment, not all of it is relevant. I can see you but you can't see me I'd protect you if you wouldn't, kill me Are you certain that you fell down? I'm just waiting, so you really let your gun down? Your relaxed, your sublime, your amazing You don't even know the danger you're facing If I'm quiet, I'll slide up behind you And if you hear me I'll make sure to try to find you I've been with you all day I'm trying to stay calm I've been beaten and it's really hard to breathe I'm going to enter you and kill you there with me The violet's down Don't get to make a sound Oh God I'm feeling it It's making feeling pecks My skin is caving in My heart is craving out No mercy, no remorse And its going off course (watch me) Bring me to my knees (waiting) I am your disease (lover) Can I step down please (lover) You don't love me (wait, no, wait, no, wait, wait, not yet, no wait) I'm treading through my veins I'm trying to hold on You can bare a mole thats almost worth from me I'm gonna to tear you apart and make you see MAKE YOU SEE! (watch me) Bring me to my knees (waiting) I am your disease (lover) Can I step down please (lover) You don't love me This is the virus THE VIRUS OF LIFE It gets inside us AND HURTS US INSIDE This is the virus THE VIRUS OF LIFE This is inside us THE ONE THAT CONNECTS It's almost time to play It's time to be afraid I can't control the pain I can't control in me I'm glad I'm ready now You're almost ready now I'm gunna raid it now I'm gonna break it down I see you in the dark I see you all the way I see you in the light I see you bright as day I wanna suck your face I wanna suck your soul I wanna wear your face I WANT TO BREAK IT ALL (watch me) Bring me to my knees (waiting) I am your disease (lover) Can I step down please (lover) You don't love me This is the virus, the virus of life This is the virus, the virus of life This is the virus, the virus of life This is the virus, the virus of life THIS IS THE VIRUS, THE VIRUS OF LIFE! THIS IS THE VIRUS, THE VIRUS OF LIFE! THIS IS THE VIRUS, THE VIRUS OF LIFE! THIS IS THE VIRUS, THE VIRUS OF LIFE! (Comment on this)
11:17 am	Oh and The video I posted earlier has subtitles so if you can't turn up sound then try reading, its pretty crazy what the Japanese will use for training videos. lol (Comment on this)
6:55 am	If only life was easy like this... Life would just be better if being a Pants Man kept me alive...enjoy! Current Mood: Fading (Comment on this)
Monday, July 16th, 2007
4:18 pm	Healing Therapy....it is so (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, July 13th, 2007
9:27 am	The Nothing(this is a fun idea) (Verse) A sudden pull through for the end A mix of choices that never end I build for you, I destroy for you I breath their death, I hold it in Your their everything, your the one I kill them for you, it all begins (Chorus) We build something, they are nothing We are direction, they are dying We are justice, they are useless We are everything, they are The Nothing (Okay, so that's the start to this song, so next I would like to see everyone who would like to, create some more verses, another chorus if you like, the song is written in a point of view, of a Queen's top henchman, who would do anything for her because he secretly loves her, she is an evil one, who cares about her status, and forces people to fear even the thought of over throwing her. The verses are pretty much things he does for her and how he see's those things, and the chorus of the song is the view that the share of themselves.Okay, so have fun and I can't wait to see the results, sign for consent, and if my band uses these page of lyrics,only if you give consent to use your section, then you will be noted and given creative credit in the future, thank you have fun!) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 11th, 2007
8:54 am	So I am thinkin So I am thinking to myself...what is it I can do? I am not exactly sure? I don't think I can ever remember a time in my life where I felt I was not able to chase dreams with full force. That I had to slow my paces down and breathe. That I needed to think about my next move to know it was a solid choice so I don't doubt my decisions later. I have money starting to finally not be an issue, I have a car(thankyoufairskinnedredheadedgoddess),a decent paying job that only gets stressful two hours out of the eight hour shift, a roof over my head. :) Though my brain feels like it needs more. Though this time when my brain thinks it needs more. I think fully about what it is so I don't crush an entire group of people and cheat them out of my good side that I want to keep out to play. I am trying to keep my bad side locked up in a cage, buried deep. The reality that should not be for the day...I saw a squirrel...I really did...it was running on the adjacent apartments roof top. :D Current Mood: ready to be sleepy Current Music: ninja squirrel running (1 Comment |Comment on this)